"...If the world isn't turning your heart won't return anyone, anything, anyhow..."
понедельник, 02 апреля 2007
Мда, а сайтик-то я смотрю доработали... Давненько не заглядывала, давненько... ну что же... Дабы мой дневничок не списывали в архивчик.. у меня все прекрасно. В душе,не в жизни. В жизни все дерьмово. а вот в душе прекрасно. И это самое главное. Это и есть счастье.
пятница, 06 октября 2006
Да, чего только со мной не произошло за это лето... В голове не укладывается... Теперь уже сама не верю, что могла натворить все то, что натворила... Ну да ладно, пройдет...
воскресенье, 21 мая 2006
I start missing people I don't want to miss. That's bad for them. Because I'll do everything to *****
Empty spaces - what are we living for?
Abandoned places - I guess we know the score..
On and on!
Does anybody know what we are looking for?
Another hero - another mindless crime.
Behind the curtain, in the pantomime.
Hold the line!
Does anybody want to take it anymore?
Show must go on!
Show must go on!
Inside my heart is breaking,
My make-up may be flaking,
But my smile, still, stays on!
Whatever happens, I'll leave it all to chance.
Another heartache - another failed romance.
On and on!
Does anybody know what we are living for?
I guess i'm learning
I must be warmer now..
I'll soon be turning round the corner now.
Outside the dawn is breaking,
But inside in the dark I'm aching to be free!
Show must go on!
Show must go on! Yeah!
Ooh! Inside my heart is breaking!
My make-up may be flaking!
But my smile, still, stays on!
Yeah! oh oh oh
My soul is painted like the wings of butterflies,
Fairy tales of yesterday, will grow but never die,
I can fly, my friends!
SHow must go on! Yeah!
Show must go on!
I'll face it with a grin!
I'm never giving in!
On with the show!
I'll top the bill!
I'll overkill!
I have to find the will to carry on!
On with the,
On with the show!
Show must go on.
Abandoned places - I guess we know the score..
On and on!
Does anybody know what we are looking for?
Another hero - another mindless crime.
Behind the curtain, in the pantomime.
Hold the line!
Does anybody want to take it anymore?
Show must go on!
Show must go on!
Inside my heart is breaking,
My make-up may be flaking,
But my smile, still, stays on!
Whatever happens, I'll leave it all to chance.
Another heartache - another failed romance.
On and on!
Does anybody know what we are living for?
I guess i'm learning
I must be warmer now..
I'll soon be turning round the corner now.
Outside the dawn is breaking,
But inside in the dark I'm aching to be free!
Show must go on!
Show must go on! Yeah!
Ooh! Inside my heart is breaking!
My make-up may be flaking!
But my smile, still, stays on!
Yeah! oh oh oh
My soul is painted like the wings of butterflies,
Fairy tales of yesterday, will grow but never die,
I can fly, my friends!
SHow must go on! Yeah!
Show must go on!
I'll face it with a grin!
I'm never giving in!
On with the show!
I'll top the bill!
I'll overkill!
I have to find the will to carry on!
On with the,
On with the show!
Show must go on.
суббота, 20 мая 2006
I've got 5 in philosophy. Feel upset though. I wish I had been strong enough to stand up and say - "You can give me that fucking 4, and I go home. If u wish."
I didn't... If I hadn't met Cetin, I would be depressed about it all now. Maybe I'm really crazy and must consult a specialist....
I didn't... If I hadn't met Cetin, I would be depressed about it all now. Maybe I'm really crazy and must consult a specialist....
суббота, 13 мая 2006
It is very sad to go home by bus at night alone
четверг, 11 мая 2006
Today I had my tooth pulled out. Now I'm not allowed to eat, but thank god, I went to rock bar today, and ate that enormous fish there...
I wish my future husband was a dentist. Maybe someone will say it's stange and crazy, but I want my future husband to be a dentist...
I wish my future husband was a dentist. Maybe someone will say it's stange and crazy, but I want my future husband to be a dentist...
вторник, 09 мая 2006
If he won't release me from the exam on philosophy I'll never pass it in my life. Especially with the mark I've got used to...
понедельник, 08 мая 2006
[DEPRESSED]
And even successful shopping didn't help...
And even successful shopping didn't help...
воскресенье, 07 мая 2006
Writing my terms of reference on philosophy, I curse my ex-bf, who "helped" me with it. Not that his work was bad, no... I think it is excellent for the faculty of law - lot's of words, lot's of sophisticated reasoning and as a result - nothing to the point. I've improved it a little, and have almost finished it by now but - what title will suit it??? Have no idea...
Yesterday I answered by German individual reading VERY GOOD. 5... Actually, my first important 5 in German. Congratulations! Yesterday I met Cetin, and he confirmed his intention to leave in August.
Yet he had a wonderful idea about next summer - to show me the parts of his country about which no tour agencies know. That could be wonderful. If I finally fail to go to Munchen, I'll go to Turkey. If... If... If I pass my exams first, and survive in America - second...
Yesterday I answered by German individual reading VERY GOOD. 5... Actually, my first important 5 in German. Congratulations! Yesterday I met Cetin, and he confirmed his intention to leave in August.
Yet he had a wonderful idea about next summer - to show me the parts of his country about which no tour agencies know. That could be wonderful. If I finally fail to go to Munchen, I'll go to Turkey. If... If... If I pass my exams first, and survive in America - second...
пятница, 05 мая 2006
All is fine. I have done my German, more or less ok, and tomorrow I have a good chance not to get that fucking gen?gend. Tomorrow I'm meeting Cetin. Then we have holidays. So why I want to cry? Why am i UNhappy??? WHY?
четверг, 04 мая 2006
And there's no use telling me about fighting and all that shit. I'm tired. Very tired. Fed up with it all.
So I'll just go on, with enormous amount of home assignments and a dream of my future diploma of interpreters' department.
So I'll just go on, with enormous amount of home assignments and a dream of my future diploma of interpreters' department.
From now on, I won't do a single thing to attract anybody's attention. Not a single thing. I won't disturb anyone. Promise.
суббота, 29 апреля 2006
Vodka helps. Always.
среда, 26 апреля 2006
Such things happen. We cant change anything. We can only live on. With some emptiness instead of someone who will never smile at you again
вторник, 25 апреля 2006
Another shit - Nastya and me have different planes. Wonderful. Moreover, I'll have to spend a whole night in Sheremetjevo airport, coz my plane is at 7-15am. Cool... Why so much problems??? Why???
Air France... Nastya says - "at least you'll breath the air of Paris once more" Marvellous. The air of the airport....
Air France... Nastya says - "at least you'll breath the air of Paris once more" Marvellous. The air of the airport....
четверг, 13 апреля 2006
I have got my visa. TOmorrow I'll write how it all was, if find time for that. It was hell of a day, though Moscow was wonderful.
So, the trip to america becomes real. Yet I don't feel overjoyed. Why?
So, the trip to america becomes real. Yet I don't feel overjoyed. Why?
вторник, 11 апреля 2006
As Abel said, no one forced me to choose Deutsch als Fremdsprache....
понедельник, 10 апреля 2006
Life is a most mysterious thing. We have hundreds of plans, but ... It has thousands of surpises for us... And sometimes they are most pleasant ones...
Sometimes... Sometimes I feel sorry about lot's of things I have done and have not done...
Sometimes I wish I was again a little girl... And could live my life in a different way...
Sometimes I wish I hadn't met those people that were near me for such a long time...
I wish I had spent more time with those, who are "not available" now...
And I wish I didn't receive endless calls and messages from those I've forgotten forever...
But it's life. My life. Life upside down...
Sometimes I wish I was again a little girl... And could live my life in a different way...
Sometimes I wish I hadn't met those people that were near me for such a long time...
I wish I had spent more time with those, who are "not available" now...
And I wish I didn't receive endless calls and messages from those I've forgotten forever...
But it's life. My life. Life upside down...